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I to you write – that pains?
What can I tell still?
Now, I know, in your will
Contempt to punish me.
But you, to my unfortunate share
Though a drop of pity storing,
You won't leave me.
At first I wanted to be silent;
Believe: my shame
You wouldn't learn never,
When I would have hope
Though it is rare, though in a week of times
In our village to see you,
Only to hear your speeches,
To you to say the word, and then
All to think, think of one
And day and night to a new meeting.
But, speak, you is unsociable;
In a solitude, in the village everything is boring for you,
And we... anything we don't shine,
Though to you also we are glad ingenuously.

Why you visited us?
In a solitude of the forgotten settlement
I never would know you,
Wouldn't know bitter torture.
Souls inexperienced excitements
Having restrained over time (as the nobility? )
On heart I would find the friend,
There would be a faithful wife
And virtuous mother.
Another! . No, to anybody on light
I wouldn't give heart!
That in vyshny is fated council...
That will of the sky: I yours;
All life washing I was pledge
Appointments true with you;
I know, you are sent me by god,
To a coffin you are a keeper mine...
You in dreams to me were,
Hidden, you were lovely to me,
Your wonderful look me wearied,
In soul your voice was distributed
Long ago... no, it was not the dream!
You slightly entered, I in a moment learned,
All was stupefied, flared
And in thoughts I said: here it!
Not truth? I heard you:
You spoke with me in calm,
When I poor helped
Or by a prayer I charmed
Melancholy of excited soul?
And during this instant
Whether you, lovely image,
In transparent darkness I flashed,
Priniknul silently to a headboard?
Not you, with a joy and love,
Hope words to me whispered?
Who you are, whether my angel the keeper,
Or artful tempter:
My doubts resolve.
Perhaps, this all empty,
Deception of inexperienced soul!
Also other is fated absolutely...
But well! Destiny I wash
From now on I hand over to you,
Before you tears I pour,
Your protection I beg...
Imagine: I here one,
Anybody doesn't understand me,
My mind is exhausted,
And silently I have to perish.
I'm waiting for you: uniform look
Hopes of heart recover,
Or dream heavy перерви,
Alas, the deserved reproach!

I finish! It is terrible to count...
Shame and fear I fade...
But me bail your honor,
And safely to it myself I entrust...

I love you, nothing else to say
I have, but also know you may
Surround me with your disdain.
But condoling my pitty way
You won’t abandon me alone.
At first I wanted keep my senses,
You wouldn’t hear what’s right, what’s wrong,
If I had any expectancies
To see you seldom, once a week
In our lands, to give you a quick,
Fond eye, to hear your voice and then,
Then think about “Where?”, “When?”
My dear, we will meet again.
But people say that you’re reserved
In our solitude you’re bored,
And we’re not brilliantly bright
But you are welcome days and nights.

Why have you visited that nook?
It was enough to have a look
At you to feel my poor heart
In love, if we had stood apart
My feelings would have come to end
And,I'd have met my future friend,
Who, maybe, I won’t ever stand,
But I'd be able to become
A faithful wife and a kind mum.

Another man? Oh no, I’ll never,
I’ll never love another one!
It was determined in heaven,
And if you call me, I will come
To you. For me you're only one,
Who I’ve been waiting all my life.
I know exactly you’re my Sun,
Which saves me from all the strikes.
I saw you even in my dreams,
You won my heart without seeing
Your queer stare took my being,
Your voice in soul was like scream
That time -No, I was not asleep!
I’ve noticed you’re to it concerning
I was astonished, was I burning,
How I was dreaming of friendship!
I’ve heard you, dear, did you see?
How calm it was to speak to me,
When I was helping poor men
Or praying, were you near then
To make my soul just to be
In peace, this moment, precious sight,
You was the only man who might
Appear in the limpid night
Before my hoping face inclining.
Were not that you who shed in loving
Timbre hopeful light?
Can you pretend to save from evil
My innocence or you are devil?
My world was deeply got upset,
But maybe it is self-deception
Of soul lulled with loving thread?
And there won’t be any action…
But I decided – I am yours
With tears asking for protection
Without you around the earth
There’s only lonely direction.
No one of people round mine
Can matter out what possesses
My pour flagging crazy mind
Tossing in agony of death.
I wait for you and our date
Which’ll be conclusive for my fate.

It’s over! I became so pale,
I falter with a scaring heart
But till your honor is my bail